some photography related rambling.

i think every artist goes through stages of like & dislike of their own work.  we are our own worst critics, for sure.  we simultaneously love our own work & hate it.  i keep pushing in the direction that is "my style" while also admiring so many great photographers who inspire me to take a new approach.

sometimes i have editing schizophrenia.  dull, soft, dreamy tones or saturated, bright & happy colors? as artists we reserve the right to change our minds.  i admire those photographers who are super consistent.  they have a style you could pick out of a line up because it is just so "them."  that's what i'm striving to be someday.  i wonder if i'll ever feel like i've arrived?  like if i EVER feel like my pictures look exactly the way i want them to look.  it's so weird to have an idea in your head that you're working towards & just not be there.

don't get me wrong, i have seen significant improvement in my stuff over the last two years since doing my photo a day project, but i think i will ALWAYS be working towards that idea of where i see myself in my head.  every now & then i really do love my stuff.  i look at it & think well yeah, that's pretty good.  but i promise, in my head i'm saying i just got lucky.  i couldn't do it again if i tried.  i think that's a combo of the magic of photography as well as my own naysaying.  photography is magical because a certain moment really can't be recreated.  i really couldn't do it again if i tried because that exact moment will never, ever happen again.  at least not exactly as it once was.  so i really did just get lucky.

photography is just a combination of being in the right place at the right time & being technically skilled enough to do the right thing at the right moment.  i think that's why we photographers get so obsessed.  it's a thrill.  we really are just junkies trying to catch that high we feel when we nail a shot.  it's addicting.

it's exciting to see how far i've come since first picking up a dslr in 2010.  it's exciting to think how far i could continue to go if i keep pushing on.  it's safe to say my obsession is alive & well & probably at an all time high.  i'm also excited to have revitalized this blog so i can get these thoughts out of my head at 2 am.  even if it is just rambling.

and now for some pretty pictures.  ;)