weekend wrap-up & a head injury.

and we're back.

we had a nice long weekend down in portland full of family & fun & laziness & productivity & when we got back home monday night i kinda extended all of that into my tuesday.  it was one of those days where laundry was calling & bags needed to be unpacked & there was a whole heckuvalotta things i shoulda been doing & i didn't do any of them.  don't you need one of those days every now & then?  i did, however, walk to the library with a friend & go grocery shopping & make a warm dinner for the fam so i'm chalking the day up as a success.  

our weekend was eventful.  two major things:  parker took a nasty fall down some stairs & hit the back of his head on concrete & we bought a new car.  these things happened within two hours of each other.  

it was one of those moments where you watch something happen & feel so absolutely helpless after the fact.  what's done is done & you can only hope for the best.  sam had been spotting parker down the stairs from his sister's apartment & with about two more to go, asked me to watch him so he could run ahead & get started loading up the car.  my hands were full & i was one step behind parker & i knew i couldn't really spot him like i should but i told sam to go ahead anyway because i thought in my head, shoot, he only had a couple more steps to go & i figured he was fine.  as soon as parker saw sam run ahead, he of course tried to hurry & keep up & got tripped up on his feet & fell on his knees on the step ahead of him & then twisted around & hit the back of his head on the concrete at the bottom of the stairs.  THUD.  he hit HARD.  

the scream wasn't immediate... there was a moment to catch his breath & then came the scream.  a couple good screams & then cries.  there wasn't any blood but he got a pretty good bump & his face went as pale as i'd ever seen it.  his lips were ghost white & he wasn't really responding to any of our questions & wouldn't walk.  the color started returning after a few minutes but i still put a page into our pediatrician who was on-call due to the holiday & we had to wait for a call back.  

ugh, don't google "toddler fall hit head" in these circumstances, folks.  unless you like to freak yourself out beyond what your own mind is already capable of conjuring up.  because at this point i'm already playing worst case scenarios in my mind & how i'll never forgive myself for thinking he'd be fine taking those last two steps on his own.  google doesn't help.

ok, long story short, our pediatrician called back & told us as long as he wasn't vomiting, didn't seem dizzy or disoriented & was walking/talking/running/playing as normal we were probably in the clear.  within half an hour of the fall, he was back to his normal self & never looked back.  but holy crap, it's a full day later & i'm still shuddering at how it could have been worse.   i'm still playing out all the "what-ifs" & "coulda-beens."  how quickly our lives coulda changed.  SCARY.

parenthood is scary.

in other news, we bought a new car this weekend!  it's a 2010 Subaru Outback & i'm pretty much in love with it.  i don't feel like i own quite enough pairs of hiking boots to be the owner of an Outback but i think i'll make due.  it's comfy & spacious & fits our double stroller with ease & i can't wait to tote around two kiddos in my new soccer-mom-mobile.  so forgive me if i'm never online anymore, i'm probably just driving around somewhere aimlessly in the new ride.  

and lastly, a pic of this cute little munchkin hanging out with his dad.  he's just my favorite little guy & i'm pretty sure no post on this blog is quite complete without his little face.  LOVE him.