i had my first emotional meltdown of the pregnancy.
blame it on being exhausted {up til 2 am the night before with a sleepless-sick kiddo}, on pregnancy hormones, on a week of having a sick/cranky/irritable/out-of-sorts kid, on being worried about an upcoming weekend away from said-kid... whatever. it happened. you know when you get to the point of just letting it all out? crying because it feels good to cry? yeah, that. poor sam took the brunt of it. he made a comment that was meant to be a joke {i'm sure he was making fun of me for using one of my million forms of social media...} but it struck me wrong {i'm sure i felt he was being "unsupportive"} & boom went the floodgates. looking back? it was an overreaction, it was a meltdown. but for some reason it made me feel better. weird, right?
usually i am pretty dang level-headed. i can hold on to things & deal with them as they come & not let it all boil over. i even pride myself on that... i'm mellow. but on sunday little things added up to a lot. stress about how the heck we're fitting two kids into one tiny room, how parker will adjust to getting kicked out of his crib in a month, worry over finding a sitter willing to babysit my sick kid so i can avoid calling into work sick again & last but not least? worry about leaving parker this weekend while sam & i fly to st. louis.
so after getting all this out to sam & realizing not every one of those issues needed to be resolved right that second i felt completely fine. actually, i felt silly for freaking out. i got a text from our sitter saying she was available at the last second to watch parker so i wouldn't have to call in sick again & i'm starting to get really excited for a weekend alone with sam instead of worried. i got a good night of sleep last night & i found some really cute shared-bedroom ideas on pinterest. it's all gonna be fine.
i'm chalking this one up to being an overly-tired-hormonal-pregnant woman... i'm allowed to do that, right? the answer is yes. because i've made it 25/40ths through my pregnancy & am just now having my first breakdown.
i'd say that's pretty good.
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Sometimes you just need a good cry. I don't think I'm quite as level headed as you, or I just handle situations differently. I pretty much cry when it seems like something 'big' isn't going to go my way. But the truth is I just take a bit to process stuff. When Chris has to work 12 days straight and I won't have any help and there is this or that to do, I usually lose it. But eventually I work through it. Sometimes you just need to let the emotions out first so you can regroup and focus.
ReplyDeleteYour bump is looking mighty adorable :).
24 out of 40 weeks is a great record! ;) it happens to us all. I I only remember one freak out during my pregnancy with ruby, but it was bad. and in whole foods. and I'm fairly certain that T (the hubs) came within inches of losing his life bc he dared say he wanted to eat dinner at home instead of the deli. haha. anyway, glad you're feeling better! :)
ReplyDeletei hear ya on the pregnancy hormones, but crying always seems to make it better. you seem like such an amazing and strong women and every now and then we just need a break! hope you have a wonderful weekend this weekend!! :0)
ReplyDeleteThat is really good! Sometimes it's hard to take it all in stride, especially when if feels like there is SO MUCH that has to happen. Have fun being alone with your spouse!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree, this is the FUN part of pregnancy. I'm almost 14 weeks, still feeling the after effects of a not great first trimester....still want my energy back...and my and I really want my bump to firm up! Still feeling flabby! You look so great!
ReplyDeleteOh man, it's bound to happen. My husband still loves to tell the story about the time when I was pregnant with number one and completely lost my shit over his unwillingness to go and get me apples. You know, at midnight, because I had to have fresh ones the next morning and not the "mushy" ones that had been sitting around all week. Did I mention he had also just walked in the door from a business trip? Lol, sometimes that stuff just has to come out :). You are still looking awesome!
ReplyDeleteOoooh girl, I totally know how you're feeling! Being pregnant is tough on you physically and emotionally. And being pregnant with a toddler?! --even harder! I don't blame you. I'm also pretty level-headed most of the time and I was totally proud of myself for being so "put together" most of my pregnancy, then somewhere around the start of my third trimester I had a little meltdown like you mentioned. It was no good, but it was necessary!! Sometimes, our emotions just get the best of us and it feels dang good to cry!!
ReplyDeletei think meltdowns are totally an necessity! :) You are doing great! And you are so adorable!
ReplyDeleteHa ha ha! I totally didn't last 25/40ths through my pregnancy! I think my freak outs started at about 8/40ths! He he! And they continued the whole way through! My #1 ignitor was when my husband wouldn't shut the garbage all the way (we have a pull out one) and the dogs would get into it...after he went to sleep of course and I stayed up crocheting (night owl like you). Rather than just clean it up I would waddle to our room, glare at him from the doorway 'till he woke up and if he didn't immediately spring out of bed to go clean it up he would get the covers yanked and light switch turned on. It was like I was out of body...I knew I was being crazy, but I just couldn't help it!! Poor guy. ;) Glad you're feeling better - crying is so cleansing! ;)
ReplyDeleteYou are lookin' great, as always. Being emotional is very normal with pregnancy; I'm sure the family understands.
ReplyDeleteYou look so cute, as usual! :) A good cry is necessary sometimes, I tend to be a perfectionist and the stress catches up with me every couple months and then there is a meltdown. I kind of expect one coming, Jesse has been gone for a week now and I have been real sick for 3 days and Hunter just woke up sick this morning. Ugh.
ReplyDeleteHope you have so much fun with your alone time with the hubby! :)
I about crawled over the cashier lane at Target when the cashier asked me when I was due on Sunday to give her a hug. I was like FINALLY I have a bump that is noticeable! :)
ReplyDeleteNothing better than having your husband feel baby kicks. We still haven't come up with a name. If you think of any, let me know. :)
Oh no, but a nice little meltdown, cry helps sometimes doesnt it!? I sure had my share when hubby first deployed, and again the other night all I could do was beat myself up inside about how he is not going to make it for baby 3's birth LOL! So with that said, I might be calling some of you amazing ladies to help me get through this birth if I have a bad breakdown! Hope that is okay LOL! You are amazing, and shared spaces I think are the most fun to decorate for! Omg we should have a decorating party, or something how fun lets go shopping :) Take care girl!!!
ReplyDeleteI love those ridiculous, can't-believe-I'm-crying-this-much type of cries. It's cleansing for the soul. And I think you're incredible for not doing it way before 25 weeks!
ReplyDeleteThat is so NOT you! It has to be the exhaustion mostly, plus you-know-what hitting the fan with the stress of the stifled concerns. Jody is the one of the best people in the world for Parker to spend a few days with... I am glad things are all better now. Enjoy your adventure this weekend! oxox
ReplyDeleteSoooo adorable!!
ReplyDeleteYou're doing much better than I was at this point in my pregnancy. Kid Rock songs were giving me emotional break downs. Keep your head up, doll. :)
ReplyDeleteI'd say that's really damn good! It's ok to cry. I cry at the drop of the hat, especially if I don't get my own way. I'm a bit of a baby sometimes. The bump is looking adorable! I swear you are the cutest pregnant girl ever!
ReplyDeleteI totally feel you. Monday I dropped Lily off with my parents so I could go to my Dr. Appointment and as soon as I was alone in the car I just burst into tears. It happens ;)
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